I totally understand. I am in the same boat, except my S-W-M-B-O does not know about my hidden desires. So, I was just fantasizing, which is all I can do, to the disappointment of so many, including myself 😒😘 Regards to the misses 😊
The only drawback to that activity, sweetie, is the fact that She-Who-Must-Be-Obeyed would, in all honesty, cut my balls off and make me wear them as ear-rings. We've been together for 54 years and in all that time , it's just been the two of us, nobody else, and I do think at this stage we don't anticipate anybody else joining us. And just as a footnote , She reads ALL my correspondence and says yes or no to me pressing the "send" button. Hope you understand and sorry